Remembering To Smile

I decided that I really shouldn't back track and rewrite my whole summer. That would take to long. I'm going to focus on my thoughts and feelings of here and now. What I have been thinking a lot about the last few weeks is how I can be a better mom. I know I know, we all think that. But since I got pregnant I just feel like I have been a horrible mom to be around. (I felt the same way after Cameron was born.) I just feel like I'm grumpy, sick or tried. Or I have no patience. I feel like I get annoyed all the time. The other day I read, "No David" to Logan. This book spark a thought in me. How many times do I say No, Logan, Stop, Logan, What did you do Logan, What are you doing? I probably say it 100 times a day. So my goal this week as a mom was to stop saying no, and to just remember to smile. To remember that my kids are little. All they want to do is have fun. I was tested today when I took my kids outside to play. Logan immediately found the mud. Cameron followed. They started to play nicely with it. Then all the sudden, Cameron had mud in his hair, all over his clothes. Logan was laughing, Cameron was laughing. I was laughing. I remembered to smile! I just stood on the porch laughing! Logan looked at me and said, "Mom we are just having some fun. We're ok." I thought, it is ok. Everything washes, including them.

By popular demand I have been asked to update my life :) I'm writing this while Cameron is behind me playing horsey with my hair..."heee" he is saying. Ok kid, time to get down and let Mommy type. kd2i9c, I said, "Mommy needs to type". Hmm, I think this is going to take a little while. It won't be all caught up today, but at least you'll have something to look forward to.

Looking at my blog I have to go way way back!!!!!!!!! I will start with Logan and his birthday. I can't believe he turned 4! This year we just had close friends and family join us in the celebration. Last year I got a little crazy and invited what felt like the whole neighborhood (I have no idea what I was thinking he was only 3!!!) Logan loves camping and campfires so we had a camping theme. Jared made up a fire one night and camped outside. Meanwhile, I slept in my bed. What, someone had to listen for Cameron :)

One of the funniest moments at his party is when he brought out his blanket to watch a movie with his friends. Logan loves sharing his blanket. If you have kids, and they have "blankets" these blankets can be a little scary to even look at. His friends are always troopers and endure the few minutes of his blanket on their legs. It's always funny to watch b/c he will place it on their lap, and they will slowly push it off. Then he will slowly push it back on. Explaining to them they need to get cuddly for the movie.

Throughout the summer we went swimming once a week to the Draper pool. If was perfect for both Cameron and Logan. Cameron loved watching Logan jump into the pool. He even wanted to try it. At 15 months he was jumping in and holding his breath. Cameron loves the water. The more we went, the more Logan got into swimming. This picture reminds me of a GQ model picture of him getting out of the water

Cameron is growing up so fast. He loves playing in the water, animals, and eating. I swear every picture I have of him, he has some kind of food in his mouth. He is 18 months old and only has 6 teeth. Two more are coming, but they have been for two months.

Why is it that boys flock to
dirt? Logan and Cameron can not contain themselves when they see a chance to get muddy!


Logan & his buddy Steven covered in mud. Of course Cameron had to join in the fun. :)