Remembering To Smile

I decided that I really shouldn't back track and rewrite my whole summer. That would take to long. I'm going to focus on my thoughts and feelings of here and now. What I have been thinking a lot about the last few weeks is how I can be a better mom. I know I know, we all think that. But since I got pregnant I just feel like I have been a horrible mom to be around. (I felt the same way after Cameron was born.) I just feel like I'm grumpy, sick or tried. Or I have no patience. I feel like I get annoyed all the time. The other day I read, "No David" to Logan. This book spark a thought in me. How many times do I say No, Logan, Stop, Logan, What did you do Logan, What are you doing? I probably say it 100 times a day. So my goal this week as a mom was to stop saying no, and to just remember to smile. To remember that my kids are little. All they want to do is have fun. I was tested today when I took my kids outside to play. Logan immediately found the mud. Cameron followed. They started to play nicely with it. Then all the sudden, Cameron had mud in his hair, all over his clothes. Logan was laughing, Cameron was laughing. I was laughing. I remembered to smile! I just stood on the porch laughing! Logan looked at me and said, "Mom we are just having some fun. We're ok." I thought, it is ok. Everything washes, including them.